I miss my husband so much. I miss my children so much.
They are all doing fine without me. I'm not doing fine without them.
I know how much I have hurt them. Especially the man I fell in love with.
The feeling in my gut tonight is unexplainable. Every night I cry myself to sleep.
If I get in tomorrow it's only the beginning of the 30 days. If I miss 1 bus I won't get there in time.
I just want a life free from addiction that includes my husband, 3 kids, 1 dog, 1 cat, 7 guinea pigs and my sanity.
Now I need to go so I can go throw up again!